Is our truth what we were told or what we know?
Majority of my life I lived my truth based on others’ perspective. I thought I was limited because I have a disability. It was what I was told as a child, and I believed it.
My disability developed when I was 4 months old. I was told that I was allergic to the formula, and I became very ill. While I was in the hospital, my mother picked me up, and I began to scream. She immediately called the nurse. After running various tests, I was diagnosed with hip dysplasia.
Hip dysplasia is an abnormality of the hip joints where the socket does not fully cover the ball portion which results into hip dislocations in both of my hips. Fortunately, the doctors were able to salvage my left hip but my right hip was never developed enough to form a normal hip. My hip dysplasia resulted into leg discrepancy. I would never walk normal because the leg discrepancy causes a limp on my right side.
When you have a disability, the world can be harsh, especially for children. I was bullied in school, and my mother was overprotected which made me feel like I couldn’t do anything due to my disability. The comments the children said were so hurtful that I rather not repeat them. I viewed myself by my disability, not by who I am internally. I became obsessed with my physical attributes and started to hate myself. I allowed my disability to become my excuse for mediocrity and low self-esteem.
However, this was not my truth, and I had to re-write my truth to fit who I am today. I have learned that I cannot believe people’s opinions because they do not matter in my life.
The only opinion that matters is my own.
Merissa Hanley is on a mission to spread love and peace to the world with her own self-discovery. Through this blog, Merissa shares her trials, tribulations, and resources which led Merissa back to herself.